It’s been a difficult few weeks for me. I’m in the midst of coming off my medication and searching for a new therapist. I’d explain all the other stresses going on right now, but lack of therapist and medication are pretty well huge enough. I won’t delve down the rabbit hole of anti depressants now, but keep checking in, I’m fairly sure I will have a hell of a lot to say before long.
With that in mind, here’s my list of things I’m grateful for:
- A comfy new mattress and the blissful sleep that accompanies it. With the medication changes I’ve noticed periods of utter exhaustion. I’ve had to change my “real world” work hours, just to avoid dosing off when on the job.
- Cute little self help books. At the moment I’m slowly doodling my way through “How to be happy, or at least less sad.” It’s a sweet little book that makes looking at depression an, almost, fun activity. It’s filled with pages to write on and draw on. I haven’t worked my way through much of it as yet, but it’s definitely encouraging me to be more mindful.
- Sci Fi. ‘Nuff said.
- Gratitude. Yep, I’m thankful for people being thankful. Yes, I’ve made it meta. This week I made a friend an amazing present. Between trying not to fall asleep and trying to catch up on all my other jobs, it was exhausting putting this present together. It was all worth it when I saw my friend’s reaction.
- Just to kink things up a bit, the last thing I’m thankful for is finally getting some ‘play’ time with a lady I’ve had a bit of a crush on for a while. I’ve only had a handful of conversations with her, but I feel we vibe together quite well (as the risk of sounding too woo woo) and, unlike many other women I’ve been with, she’s stands very confident in her sexuality. Confidently queer women, gotta feel a little buzz off that alone.
Feel free to comment if you’d like to add something you’re grateful for this week. Stay positive blog-o-sphere-ians and chat to you next week.